24/3/11
I would grab a shovel and dig
just to find out if Hell exists,
Well I guess, where do I go for this,
A graveyard seems appropriate,
And now I’m shaking dead bodies
and yelling at them, tell me what happened,
tell me what happens.
Because honestly I’ve had enough of this life,
And if there’s nothing I’d rather die,
But if there’s something I need to know,
Because all I want is nothing at all.

I hijacked a plane and tried
to shove it through the clouds
to the other side, is there another side
to all of this? I tried to fly towards
the moon but I could never
make it so high, and I’m screaming at clouds,
I’m going insane.

Because honestly I’ve had enough of this life,
And if there’s nothing I’d rather die,
But if there’s something I need to know,
Because all I want is nothing at all.

Met a man who said

‘I spent my days flying and digging,
I spent every day just searching,
And one minute I was young and able,
But now I can’t even see properly,
And I don’t have the strength to shake,
And I don’t have the strength to fly’,
So I met a man who said ‘

‘I spent my days flying and digging,
I spent every second just searching,

And now I’m still dying and I don’t have my answers,
And now I will die without any of my precious answers
and no life to look back on with joy’

And I don’t want to end up like that,
And I don’t want to spend my whole life
wishing I could die just to see the other side,
Because what if there’s nothing,
What if there’s something,

I’m doing it again,

And I don’t want to spend my whole life searching,
And I don’t want to spend my whole hating,
And I’ve been dying for years so I really need the answers,

But death is inevitable and I think I just need a bit of acceptance
and a whole lot of patience.