13/1/11
Do you feel you shoulder all the blame,
Do you feel even an inch of my pain,
Do you live like me - every day the same,
I go over the memories again and again,
And it makes me hate myself,

I am so dirty, I cannot get clean,
I am so desperate that
I even tried using gasoline
to burn away all of my scars
but all it did was burn away
any hope I dared to have last.

I have been told ‘kid, grit, get over this,
You’re holding too tight onto the past,
Why the hell can’t you move on,
I swear it is not as hard
as you are making out, have a shower,
Wake up, get on with the day’

And I inserted the tape again,
And I press rewind, play, rewind play,
I scrutinize your face to place some blame,
I live every day the same over again and again.

I am so dirty, I cannot get clean,
I am so desperate that
I even tried using gasoline
to burn away all of my scars
but all it did was burn away
Any hope I dared to have last.

My lungs feel like they’re full of water
Rather than air, yeah, I’m drowning,
while you’re yelling ‘grit your teeth, kid’,
Well all that does is trap the water in,
And make me drown a little bit faster, oh
I can hardly breathe.

I am so dirty, water is so weak,
I am so desperate that
I even tried to burn my heart
clean with a can of gasoline,
But all it did was burn away
my entire identity, my face.