Honesty

6/10/10

Honesty doesn’t agree with me,
Makes my guts squirm like worms,
Hurts my eyes so I can’t sleep,
And lets go my tongue so I can speak

But I don’t want to utter another word
or take another breath with these
never-meant-to-be lips.

For me, there is nothing worse
than vulnerability and weakening
just because you can’t keep a secret,
It kills me.

I have these double standards
which are so disgustingly distorted
having these expectations for myself
so much higher than for anyone else,

But I try not to expect anything at all
from me, I don’t want to break this
never-meant-to-be heart.

For me, there is nothing worse
than vulnerability and weakening
just because you can’t keep a secret,
this kills me.

So I try not to speak a word,
So I try not to breathe too deep,
So I try not to cut my veins,
So I try just to sleep the night through,
I try just to survive another day,
And it’s all for you, believe me,
It’s all for you,

But I don’t want to expect anything at all
from you, I don’t want to break this
never-meant-to-be heart.

Vulnerability equals healing,
Speaking isn’t weakening,
And vulnerability equals trusting,
And trusting is all based on strength,
And honesty is the only cure.