11-10-10

11/10/10
It’s hard when you have to
talk yourself into taking every tiny step
and everyone’s expecting you
to run a marathon and get top prize,

Their expectations
require motivation,
I keep the smile plastered
the best I can,
But I fear failing despite the
distance I’ve ran.

It’s hard to comprehend
that everyone is believing in you to win
when you can’t believe a thing
you’re just trying so hard to impress,

Their expectations
require motivation,
I feel the smile slipping
into tension,
And I fear failing despite
all the attention.

I feel the pressure of the lies,
I feel their hopes for my life,
I just fear I cannot fulfill them,
I am tired of all the attention,
I never asked for it – why can’t I just
be sick and that’s it.

Their expectations
require motivation,
I paint the smile all the way
over my frown,
And I am close to failing
I’m sorry but I’m out.’

I drowned my head in you,
I drowned my head in impressing,
Now I need to work on getting better.