1/8/11
I never used to believe the whole
‘a burden shared is a burden halved’
I never used to believe in talking therapy
‘just talk about it, you’ll feel better’

And so I went through life just hiding inside a thousand lies,
So tiring trying to remember who you’ve told what
and always fearing you’ll slip up and ruin everything
again.

And so I went through life with this secret hidden in my heart,
With all my veins wrapped so tight around it
that it hurt sometimes I had to just let them loosen
up a bit.

So now I’ve got all these scars that can and can’t be seen,
But I guess I got tired of the entire depressed scene,
And I guess I decided maybe all this crap was worth a try,
And so I, and it took practice for so many years, but I
taught myself how to run this tongue in truth,

I think I caught my tongue off guard and sometimes it’s still hard
to get the words from my head to my mouth,
I’m still used to lying, exaggerating and hiding,
But I, and I’m still practicing all the time, but I
taught myself how to run this tongue in truth,
And that secret wrapped inside my chest might have just slipped out
by accident, but who says all accidents are bad because I think
this was the best thing I ever did. I never knew I’d feel like this,
As cliché as it is my shoulders, my spine is holding up nothing
but my body right now, and I feel like I could probably fly
if I ran fast enough on my light feet,

And that secret wrapped inside my chest might have just forced its way
onto my tongue but I’m not angry or trying to figure out how
I’ll ever live this down, I never knew I’d feel so,
And I’m on the ninth cloud and I know eventually I’ll come down
But I’m enjoying it for now, and I feel like I am flying
all because I ran my tongue.

1/8/11
There’s been this difference in my life since I widened my squinting eyes,
I saw things I’d never seen right in front of me,
And I think they call this opportunity.

Where in boredom I used to list the things I hated
about my stupid self, well now I’m listing the things
that I don’t mind,

Well what a turnaround,
I’m not saying I don’t’ feel pain,
But I also no longer fear change.

I crawled out of the glass box I built around myself,
And I didn’t get out unscathed,
And I’ve got more scars than some,
But I don’t hide them in shame anymore,

I decided not to just live to breathe,
same old boring unfulfilling routine,
I decided to just give life a try,
Now I breathe to live,

And I will fill this head with memories unpleasant and the opposite
because that’s just life but I won’t lie down at the first sign
of a fight because I’ve been through more than some
and I know I can get through, I know I can get through everything.