Curiousity killed the...

Am I on my way to the white pearl gates?
Well, I guess we all kind of are.

Since the time of birth we make a course
forever towards the sky.

We get struck down by lightening
if we make one bad move.

Whatever happened to forgiveness?

And do the dead do the same?
Do they dream of being alive again?

And so is being alive not being dead,
And being dead not being alive?

Is it as simple?

Oh, sometimes I get so curious
I stare at knives.

It’s lucky there are people in those cars
or I might be so selfish to the shells.

Oh, sometimes I get so curious.

Can't beat 'em, join 'em.

This is dated as the twenty first
but by the time I’ve finished it will be the twenty second,
Three short minutes it takes me to write this,

Isn’t time a funny thing?
It moves so quickly except when you’re waiting,
Isn’t time a funny thing?
It moves so slowly especially when you’re wishing,

I’ve been trying to haul up all my old clocks
with an old grappling hook but they just keep slipping out
their little wings moving so damn quickly.

Now it’s the twenty second,
And there jumps another suicidal clock as I write,
Three seconds and he’s dead like that,

Isn’t time a funny thing?
It moves so quickly except when you’re waiting,
Isn’t time a funny thing?
It moves so slowly especially when you’re wishing so hard...

And they’re jumping out quicker than I can pull
them up and this is a bloody tragedy, so many suicidal
clocks just trying to fly out my window,
This is a tragedy, next thing I know it will be my calendar,
I can see the holes he’s making on the wall
as he edges towards the door,
Hell I’ll nail you down with bricks, I swear,
Don’t you try going anywhere,
Hell if you can’t beat them, join them,
I spread my arms real wide.

You Were The Dark

You didn’t fill the dark -
you encouraged it.

You didn’t find the light -
you turned it off.

You weren’t the sun -
you closed the curtains.

You didn’t find the emergency generator,
You blew out every single candle,
So I would be in such need,
And there you kept me,

In the dark.

You didn’t fill the dark -
you ignited it.

I scaled the walls for years -
to find the switch.

I was always trying to peek -
through the gap.

I wanted to find just a tiny bit of light,
But how on earth could I with you,
You stood in front of the sun,
So only shadows could live on.

Insane

I’ve heard word insanity is
doing the same thing
over and over and over
and expecting a different result

so why do I keep on breathing?

I’ve heard voices in my head
saying the same thing
over and over and over
and know just how I will react

so why bother with the orders?

I’ve heard questions in circles
chasing one another
over and over and over
and never finding an answer,

so just why do I ask when I know

the important question is;
am I crazy? I sure don’t feel sane,
so I must be insane.

Never Die

You live on inside our hearts,
You will never truly die.

Thank god for memories.

Nothing in this world
ever truly dies
if we never forget,
We can keep everyone
alive.

You live on inside our hearts,
You will never truly die.

Never Die

You live on inside our hearts,
You will never truly die.

Thank god for memories.

Nothing in this world
ever truly dies
if we never forget,
We can keep everyone
alive.

You live on inside our hearts,
You will never truly die.

end

9.2.11
I wake from a hazy dream
and see a transparent image
float in front of my eyes – I put
feet on cold floor and in a trance,
I follow, I follow to the door,
I follow out the door, I follow to
the end of everything,

Flames and wind whip all around,
tree’s and clouds alike,
Burning to the ground,
the end of everything has come,

I pinch myself – a nightmare
perhaps but the pain tells
me it’s not, the end of the world
is halfway through, I cower,
I whimper, a true coward,
I recoil into my head and pretend
like I’m not all alone,

I always knew I would die alone
at the end of something,
The waves are crashing,
but they’re flame resistant.

I don’t bother to scream,
I just wrap my arms around myself,
I just pretend I’m not alone,
I don’t bother to run,
The quicker the less painful,
Unless I too am resistant…

And it turns out I see the entire world
turns to smithereens, and I am truly alone,
As I look at what’s left – nothing at all

but me.